A week from today I will be in Los Angeles, just days away from my audition for America's Got Talent. I can't believe I am really going to do this. It's a lot of time, energy, and effort for something that could just be an entire day wasted with nothing to show for it. On the other hand, if I do get on the show, it could bring me the kind of exposure that is priceless and there is no telling what would come of it. I don't plan on winning a million dollars or getting a recording contract, but it would be nice to play at Radio City Music Hall. :-)
Honestly, I am doing my best to take this thing one step at a time. I promised my Grandmother that I would audition and that's what I'm going to do. I will give it my best shot, and whatever happens, I'll deal with it then. I've known about this audition for months and now that it is just around the corner I am nervous and excited, but there is something more.
I didn't share that I was doing this earlier because I was kind of embarrassed about the whole thing. Recently I've realized that I am actually growing a lot out of this experience. I am taking myself seriously on a level that I didn't dare to previously. It takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there and throw your hat into the ring on a reality television show, but more than courage it also takes confidence. The truth is, preparing for this show is forcing me to muster up a level of confidence that I didn't even know that I lacked.
So, I'm thankful to my Grandmother for demanding that I do this. I'm thankful for the confidence she had in me, before I even had it myself. However this whole circus turns out, I'll have to find some way to show my gratitude to her for believing in me and insisting that I believe in myself. Whatever happens next Saturday, I know I've grown in ways I couldn't have anticipated just by showing up. That's kind of how life works, I suppose.
Well, my dears, wish me luck. Think happy, calm thoughts for me next Saturday. Below is a recording of my most recent song, which I am in love with right now. It's called Lemondrops. I hope you enjoy it and feel free to download it and share it with anyone who comes to mind. Maybe your Grandmother. Tell her thanks.